Things I Learned Today

Even after pushing me away once again, even though we haven't spoken in more than a month, when I see you... I still smile.

But I realized something. I'm completely disenfranchised in this saga; it's as though I'm watching someone put together a jigsaw puzzle but can't participate. It's not completely your fault. I let you do this. There's a way to change that, but it's not a price I'm willing to pay.

I'll stay the course. From this vantage point, it's still the best strategy. But I don't have to like it.

The Gap

Short of greatness
short of glory
I need You
the bridge
to see my safely
to my destination

Haze

I've been stumbling
blind through here
unable to see
what I trip over
Then came a light
cutting through the fog
promising a way out
I trust the light
and I go

Pandora

Closed
have I been
unyielding
and unwelcoming
Then you came along
holding the key
I never knew existed

Aware

Consider this
my suicide note
to who
I used to be.
He had to be killed
if I ever wanted
to live.
I don't know
to attend the burial
with regret
pity
or anger.